Today, I finally get to borrow a laptop. I did everything alone today. I went to Funan alone, went to my grandmother's house alone. I walked past the KFC where I am saw both of us sitting inside eating and then I walked past the spot where we and his friends sat and fight over chicken. I wanted to cry so badly. I've been so independent that I don't even know who I am now. I just don't have anyone. I feel so lonely, so empty but I just cannot show it to anyone. I cannot even confide, nobody will ever understand how I feel. Maybe its just time, time to give up and be friends. Its time to learn how to be independent. I just wish I could rewind time and not to do stupid things. He once told me "don't regret whatever you do". So I can't, he won't too. 2 years 8 months if we're still together. Nicole its just you, you suck.